DYNAMIC!!

I've remember or finally understood what I want to express in music and that is for it to be dynamic. Dynamic being constantly changing which is what I believe another dimension to music which its lacking. I understand now why I despise repeating other people's songs - there's no dynamics to it - of course there is variation but nothing dynamic in the true sense of the word, it's repeating a linear recording, which of course does have its merits (should draw up the advantages/disadvantages of dynamic music) but is not what I love which is improvisation. There should be a band completely improvising their music, capturing emotion as they come and truly being in the moment - something quite unique.

I want to improvise all my things - or at least most of them and mix up the linear and dynamic - catchy versus experimental
I want to record my audio visual stuff and my songs in an improvised way
I want to put up my dissertation stuff on dynamic music
I want to write a book or an extended essay about dynamic music one day
I want to rewrite this blog and make sure it actually makes sense not just a rushed piece of crap. Then again the beuty of things in the moment can be the mistakes that are made :D

something unfinished

humming bird
suspended flight
sap his vigor
shield tree
bite.

walk dirt track roads,
in morning light
a lone dog barks
in spatter bright

wild silence
chimes teeth and silver potions
seeping haze you blur our days.
wings of words and motions.

...Dancing like madness
and carving night
no
attachment.

laughing dreams and broken spears,
shudder path awoken.
embrace. embrace cells that whisper ways - paths before they're spoken.




Dust now rolls, in morning light
eternal chords
browns cold and bright
before my body,
sync sense to sight.

The rest, long awaited
surrender spite.
of whispers love
Elusive perfection
feels. just. Right.

started to crack on with this 6 hours a day guitar routine, now that my exams outta the way. I've realized yet again that I've got a fuck load to learn and I need to keep a constant record of my shtuff. Soooo here's a Dorian modal improv... enjoy

Notes for improvement: Longer chord progressions, remember to hit toggle switch to rhythm when sweeping

failing

lol. I'm more intelligent than you, just wait and see. Enjoy your masturbation.

presentation

I stayed up all night working on a custom presentation. Fully interactive and pretty damn fine looking. Sadly I can't show it because of confidentiality and copyright issues but I can put the shelving up, 3D modeled by haris and photoshoped by myself.

electromagnet

okay me and a friend of mine tried to make an electromagnet today. We failed :(


I guess we're gonna have to use more coils and possibly a stronger magnet another time... Still, no custom pickups for us

blinking circuit

I managed to build a blinking circuit that works on a timer chip. Pretty good next step. I can now read circuit diagrams :)


Annoyingly even with the video feature, the shit frame rate of my webcam won't pick up the blinking, you'll just have to take my word for it.

simple Circuit

completed my first recent circuit today. Extremely basic resistor, switch, LED and battery work - but its a start to build up to circuit bending.

"Without an element of cruelty at the root of every spectacle," he writes, "the theatre is not possible. In our present state of degeneration it is through the skin that metaphysics must be made to re-enter our minds." By "cruelty," Artaud referred not to sadism or causing pain, but rather a violent, austere, physical determination to shatter the false reality that, he wrote, "lies like a shroud over our perceptions."

pure data
electronics
metal
leather
as3
music
art
logic
avant-garde
philosophy
me

please ripen the dandelion clock

I can't push myself anymore if your gonna make me dizzy now come on lets work together.

let's have a bizarre sleeping pattern shall we?

today I have taken on job number 5. I have until Wednesday to complete my research for a game on a topic I'm not allowed to speak about. Just know... it looks fucking great and it could be some awesome :D!!! SO HAPPY xD bahahahahaaaaaaaa ha hahaaa.. haaaa.... ughhhh. This is gonna kill me....

struggling to get everything done. Hopefully I can get this flash crap out of the way and focus on the sound art stuff soon. I've got a meeting for a prospective job of designing a game friday - more work!! Although I'm quite happy, I've been to work today and had a few hours cracking on with guitar exam stuff.

At the back of my mind I wish someone would pay for me to just explore my own mind and be productive creating all these ideas that I have (I'll put them up one day when I've made them/stop being afraid of people thieving them) but then again to be truly creative you have to be diverse otherwise it seems you become single minded.

The week ahead:

Today: Coffee shop, revise guitar exam, clean house and ESIM flash design.
Tomorrow: travel to Maesteg to CAB, see parents and head back (no time to see friends :( )
Thursday: Games design company, jazz band
Friday: Game design meeting with coffee people, work coffee shop possibly go out in the night
Saturday: Coffee shop, then guitar lesson, possibly see friends in Maesteg if I can afford it and record sound art video with Ben if I can finish it :S
Sunday: Evees friends wedding
Next week: hopefully have ESIM out of the way and maybe the video, everything else:repeat

I hate routine!! Let me be more creative!!

bliss

Metamorphosis (Chrysallis of Pain)

440.35, -127.5

-1782.25 + 125 = -1657.25


- 50 on the buttons Y


orig button -1874.65

-1874.65 + 125 = 1749.65
1624.65

dexterous,
gingerly with the slow.
like a butterfly,
ever so slightly,
I taste my soul.
sheds the skin
so beautiful.
without conviction.
diluted bright eyed,
born love and luminescence without natures lies.
arch a smile.
with a glass deeper than time
grow - be mine...

-1874.65 + 140.8 = -1733.85
-1874.65 + 281 = -1593.65

#548395
#154961


x = -9.7
width = 347.6

the fading red,
trophies slaves to time.
where they linger.
where you will never find.


backdrop1 = 231
backdrop2 = 347

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hahahaha!!



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remixing

Rape a purple zebra meets rape a purple zebras' which is now the new mix with some extra bass lines. The real deal will come when its played live and add a couple of build up bits and possibly see if we can re-add the irregular rhythm part back in with a nice guitar tone.

Turns out drummer girl doesn't want in no more, which has blown things up a bit, she would of been a good match too, seemed to have the right mindset. Oh well here's to putting all your eggs in one basket...

Wednesday we're gonna film cyclops goat nectar with the audio visual stuff. I have a few ideas knocking around which I'll elaborate on once I've thought more about them. My plan is to read theatre of tragedy by antonin artaud before the final video is taken in order to set my mind in the right gear. I'm looking forward to blogging about some actual art for a change.

Grade 7 exam in the next few weeks, means more crappy sleep - hooray!

crux

rape a purple zebra is finally mixed up and out on the Maradolia myspace (yay!) we're gonna do some further mixing on wednesday so Ben can have a little input. I kinda like the new track a lot but even though some places are purposefully dissonant it doesn't have the fucked up kick I was hoping for to contrast the really gay solo. I guess its all a learning curve, probably do one more track this way then start putting a lot more thought behind the idea of next 5 tracks and make that a recurring theme.

my ties getting in the way

I'm in the right state of mind to make up my audio/video visualizer for interactive sound for the video of cyclops goat nectar we're gonna record on Sunday. Sad thing is I have work in a few hours and I need sleep, if I was any real kind of creative I'd grind my way through them both. FUCK!